It's been an interesting month or so...however long it's been since my last blog. I spent the majority of it at UCMT grading finals, which is absolute misery for me. It is so difficult to put a grade on people. All in all the students did well, which is good.
This summer is looking fairly good so far. I'm headed out to the City of Sin next week for a skin conference with Keish and my sister/sister's husband, and I'm pretty stoked about it. My car died last week, so I got a new one. It's a Kia Rondo, and I'm enjoying it. Hopefully I'll be able to hold on to this one for a while. We're also gearing up for a Disneyland trip in the fall, so hopefully we can stash some money from now til then.
No news from the Golden Door Spa in Park City for Keish yet, but for some reason I'm not too worried. The people that have heard something have been given No's, so I'm cool with waiting for it a bit. Unfortunately, neither Keish nor myself were blessed with patience, so we'll see how long that lasts. I'm mostly just enjoying the time I get to spend with her due to her not working as much.
You could say life is never easy and this economy isn't very beneficial to a Massage Therapist, but we're doing pretty well all things considered. I'm not as busy as I could be, but I'm content...for now. One of my favorite bands Lit wrote a song called "Happy in the Meantime" which pretty much describes how I'm feeling. Look it up. It's a good one.
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Sometimes I look into the mirror, and ask myself some pretty simple questions...at least, on the surface they sound easy.
Who am I? Well, that depends on the day. I've been accused of being reckless, unstable, sarcastic, and oft times too honest. I was told that I have no soul the other day, based on my innate ability to withstand ridiculous amounts of pain during Structural and Trigger Point massage. Yes, they are both intense. But I just don't show it I guess. So basically, I'm to understand that I am an incredibly honest psychopath with little to no soul...Ain't that a great thought on a Tuesday morning...
Where am I going? Usually work, sometimes crazy...Most often I am attempting to find something to do...Even if it involves going to Walmart at 2 in the morning. Where I'd like to go is wherever I can find myself...Sometimes I think our identity gets lost when we get stuck in routine.
What do I want from life? Usually a Mountain Dew and an evening with a horror movie or a few hours to play MegaMan. Now that I think about it a motorcycle would really be a cherry on top...Seriously though, a Mountain Dew would be fantastic.
What am I destined to become? I have been told that I am a lot like my father...If I end up half the man he is, I can call it a day. I want to take my career further. I want to transcend everyone's expectations of me. I want someone to come up to me one day and say, "Your song called _____ got me through a really hard time. Thank you for writing it." I don't see that one happening anytime soon, but I've always wanted that to happen. Or maybe I should become a werewolf. That'd be sweet...
If you can't tell, this is mostly a tongue-in-cheek blog. I'm in an introspective, slightly unbalanced mode. Grading finals will do that to you I guess. Sorry if you are irritated by the fact that some of this is dead serious, and other parts are not. Sometimes it's just better to let out all your thoughts rather than suppress them.
Who am I? Well, that depends on the day. I've been accused of being reckless, unstable, sarcastic, and oft times too honest. I was told that I have no soul the other day, based on my innate ability to withstand ridiculous amounts of pain during Structural and Trigger Point massage. Yes, they are both intense. But I just don't show it I guess. So basically, I'm to understand that I am an incredibly honest psychopath with little to no soul...Ain't that a great thought on a Tuesday morning...
Where am I going? Usually work, sometimes crazy...Most often I am attempting to find something to do...Even if it involves going to Walmart at 2 in the morning. Where I'd like to go is wherever I can find myself...Sometimes I think our identity gets lost when we get stuck in routine.
What do I want from life? Usually a Mountain Dew and an evening with a horror movie or a few hours to play MegaMan. Now that I think about it a motorcycle would really be a cherry on top...Seriously though, a Mountain Dew would be fantastic.
What am I destined to become? I have been told that I am a lot like my father...If I end up half the man he is, I can call it a day. I want to take my career further. I want to transcend everyone's expectations of me. I want someone to come up to me one day and say, "Your song called _____ got me through a really hard time. Thank you for writing it." I don't see that one happening anytime soon, but I've always wanted that to happen. Or maybe I should become a werewolf. That'd be sweet...
If you can't tell, this is mostly a tongue-in-cheek blog. I'm in an introspective, slightly unbalanced mode. Grading finals will do that to you I guess. Sorry if you are irritated by the fact that some of this is dead serious, and other parts are not. Sometimes it's just better to let out all your thoughts rather than suppress them.
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Fallen
This is the latest song I'm working on. It's called Fallen. I could use some input. This will be a lot more of a rock song than you're used to from me. Think Matchbox 20-Third Eye Blind kind of thing. I'll post a recording later.
If these walls could talk
I wonder what they'd say
They know I had it all
They know I gave it all away
It took the worst in me
to find a better place
It's no surprise the writing on the wall
can never be erased and
I'm falling, I'm falling down
I'm holding on to something, don't let it be all or nothing
I'm falling, I'm falling down
I hear the voices calling, don't let it be all for nothing
If the sun went down
and the night was still
And I lay in bed awake
nothing but time to kill
If I keep dreaming
I'm afraid I'll always be alone
So just leave a light on
Maybe I'll find my way back home
I'm falling, I'm falling down
I'm holding out for something, still I know it's all or nothing
I'm falling, I'm falling down
I hear the voices calling, don't let it be all for nothing
And I wanted you to see
There's nothing more to life, nothing more than how hard we try
I wanted everything,
But there's nothing else, nothing else but you and I.
If these walls could talk
I wonder what they'd say
They know I had it all
They know I gave it all away
It took the worst in me
to find a better place
It's no surprise the writing on the wall
can never be erased and
I'm falling, I'm falling down
I'm holding on to something, don't let it be all or nothing
I'm falling, I'm falling down
I hear the voices calling, don't let it be all for nothing
If the sun went down
and the night was still
And I lay in bed awake
nothing but time to kill
If I keep dreaming
I'm afraid I'll always be alone
So just leave a light on
Maybe I'll find my way back home
I'm falling, I'm falling down
I'm holding out for something, still I know it's all or nothing
I'm falling, I'm falling down
I hear the voices calling, don't let it be all for nothing
And I wanted you to see
There's nothing more to life, nothing more than how hard we try
I wanted everything,
But there's nothing else, nothing else but you and I.
Thursday, May 7, 2009
This week has been a pedal-to-the-metal kind of week. I had 2 finals to grade, a night I barely slept, and a killer toothache. For those of you who didn't read my status on facebook, I think tooth pain can suck it. That being said, I don't mind being busy.
I have really been working on the songs I want to record. Unfortunately, I can't play 3/4 of the things I want to include in said songs. I am pushing forward, and have made some progress. It appears Strong Enough, the first song on my cd, will also be on the new one...
I feel that I am approaching a significant change. You know how you can just feel it sometimes? Well, I can hear it coming...But, like always, I'll evolve. I don't think I've met anyone who enjoys change, but the human race, like the animal kingdom, has the innate ability to evolve. Evolution demands a change; sometimes subtle, sometimes earth-shattering. I think it may have to do with Keisha's interview in Park City tonight for a position at the Golden Door Spa. The GDS is basically her Mecca. It may require a few changes if she gets it, but we're ready for it.
Still, I feel there is more to it than that. I am so excited to be a T.A. at UCMT, but I wonder where it will take me. I love it. It's by far the best job I've ever had, but to what end does one do a job that isn't about money?
Dentists scare me. I have an appointment tomorrow. And I'm scared.
Sometimes life takes me by surprise. Sometimes I see things coming from miles away. True of most people? Probably. But I guess there is nothing left to do but be patient and wait. I'm not really good at that...
By the way, I have Bed of Roses by Bon Jovi stuck in my head. Don't judge me.
I have really been working on the songs I want to record. Unfortunately, I can't play 3/4 of the things I want to include in said songs. I am pushing forward, and have made some progress. It appears Strong Enough, the first song on my cd, will also be on the new one...
I feel that I am approaching a significant change. You know how you can just feel it sometimes? Well, I can hear it coming...But, like always, I'll evolve. I don't think I've met anyone who enjoys change, but the human race, like the animal kingdom, has the innate ability to evolve. Evolution demands a change; sometimes subtle, sometimes earth-shattering. I think it may have to do with Keisha's interview in Park City tonight for a position at the Golden Door Spa. The GDS is basically her Mecca. It may require a few changes if she gets it, but we're ready for it.
Still, I feel there is more to it than that. I am so excited to be a T.A. at UCMT, but I wonder where it will take me. I love it. It's by far the best job I've ever had, but to what end does one do a job that isn't about money?
Dentists scare me. I have an appointment tomorrow. And I'm scared.
Sometimes life takes me by surprise. Sometimes I see things coming from miles away. True of most people? Probably. But I guess there is nothing left to do but be patient and wait. I'm not really good at that...
By the way, I have Bed of Roses by Bon Jovi stuck in my head. Don't judge me.
Sunday, April 19, 2009
New songs
I put up two new songs on my myspace music page (www.myspace.com/sbarrington). I would love any input you might have. I've also decided that I need to finish up my new album. Here are the songs I'm thinking about putting on it.
Inside Out
Torn
Always Missing You
Storm
Come Back Down
Halo
In My Hands
The Freshman (cover of the Verve Pipe)
Strong Enough
Unbreakable.
I know that many of these will be new to you. That's the idea with a new record I think... Any other opinions of songs you've heard me play would be helpful. I always look for new songs to cover or just songs people like.
Inside Out
Torn
Always Missing You
Storm
Come Back Down
Halo
In My Hands
The Freshman (cover of the Verve Pipe)
Strong Enough
Unbreakable.
I know that many of these will be new to you. That's the idea with a new record I think... Any other opinions of songs you've heard me play would be helpful. I always look for new songs to cover or just songs people like.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
And now, the apology
It has been brought to my attention that my previous blog may have been...well...depressing. I apologize for that. I tend to paint my pictures in the darker shades, or so it would appear. I have since acquired a small sense of stability.
The hardest thing in this world is to be unsure of where you fit in the greater scheme of things. I have come to the understanding within myself that I need to set some goals and chase them down. I've been neglecting the pursuit of my own goals to help my sweet little Keish chase hers.
We talk about our 'vision' a lot in massage school. Our vision is actually where we want to go with our careers. So, I've come to the conclusion that my vision has changed a bit. It appears it's time.
The hardest thing in this world is to be unsure of where you fit in the greater scheme of things. I have come to the understanding within myself that I need to set some goals and chase them down. I've been neglecting the pursuit of my own goals to help my sweet little Keish chase hers.
We talk about our 'vision' a lot in massage school. Our vision is actually where we want to go with our careers. So, I've come to the conclusion that my vision has changed a bit. It appears it's time.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Sometimes I don't like myself. I'm sure I'm not the only one who thinks this way once in a while, but I find myself there quite a bit lately. I am drawn to a quote by Aristotle that I learned at UCMT...
"Soul and body react sympathetically upon each other; a change in the state of the soul produces a change in the shape of the body and conversely, a change in the shape of the body produces a change in the state of the soul."
Basically, this is a great metaphor for massage/bodywork, but I find myself stuck on it lately. I have seen this happen in many, many bodies that I've worked on or observed, and yet I am struggling to make it happen in my own life. As I try to repair the damage to my own body, I feel as if my soul works against me. Conversely, if I work on the damage and wounds on my soul, I feel as if my body is working against me. It's pretty frustrating.
All of this reminds me of the legend of the phoenix. A bird of fire is born, lives it's long life, then dies as it bursts into flame and falls to ash. Then, it is reborn, and repeats the cycle, therefore making it a great symbol for eternity and immortality. I am feeling a bit like my world is on fire.
"Soul and body react sympathetically upon each other; a change in the state of the soul produces a change in the shape of the body and conversely, a change in the shape of the body produces a change in the state of the soul."
Basically, this is a great metaphor for massage/bodywork, but I find myself stuck on it lately. I have seen this happen in many, many bodies that I've worked on or observed, and yet I am struggling to make it happen in my own life. As I try to repair the damage to my own body, I feel as if my soul works against me. Conversely, if I work on the damage and wounds on my soul, I feel as if my body is working against me. It's pretty frustrating.
All of this reminds me of the legend of the phoenix. A bird of fire is born, lives it's long life, then dies as it bursts into flame and falls to ash. Then, it is reborn, and repeats the cycle, therefore making it a great symbol for eternity and immortality. I am feeling a bit like my world is on fire.
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