Sunday, April 19, 2009

New songs

I put up two new songs on my myspace music page ( I would love any input you might have. I've also decided that I need to finish up my new album. Here are the songs I'm thinking about putting on it.

Inside Out
Always Missing You
Come Back Down
In My Hands
The Freshman (cover of the Verve Pipe)
Strong Enough

I know that many of these will be new to you. That's the idea with a new record I think... Any other opinions of songs you've heard me play would be helpful. I always look for new songs to cover or just songs people like.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

And now, the apology

It has been brought to my attention that my previous blog may have been...well...depressing. I apologize for that. I tend to paint my pictures in the darker shades, or so it would appear. I have since acquired a small sense of stability.

The hardest thing in this world is to be unsure of where you fit in the greater scheme of things. I have come to the understanding within myself that I need to set some goals and chase them down. I've been neglecting the pursuit of my own goals to help my sweet little Keish chase hers.

We talk about our 'vision' a lot in massage school. Our vision is actually where we want to go with our careers. So, I've come to the conclusion that my vision has changed a bit. It appears it's time.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Sometimes I don't like myself. I'm sure I'm not the only one who thinks this way once in a while, but I find myself there quite a bit lately. I am drawn to a quote by Aristotle that I learned at UCMT...

"Soul and body react sympathetically upon each other; a change in the state of the soul produces a change in the shape of the body and conversely, a change in the shape of the body produces a change in the state of the soul."

Basically, this is a great metaphor for massage/bodywork, but I find myself stuck on it lately. I have seen this happen in many, many bodies that I've worked on or observed, and yet I am struggling to make it happen in my own life. As I try to repair the damage to my own body, I feel as if my soul works against me. Conversely, if I work on the damage and wounds on my soul, I feel as if my body is working against me. It's pretty frustrating.

All of this reminds me of the legend of the phoenix. A bird of fire is born, lives it's long life, then dies as it bursts into flame and falls to ash. Then, it is reborn, and repeats the cycle, therefore making it a great symbol for eternity and immortality. I am feeling a bit like my world is on fire.